well, Valentine's Day was fun and it sucked. i woke up at least 3 times during the night; each time in a very heavy cold-sweat (i mean like the sheets were fucking saturated, and i was dehydrated). so i ate breakfast, perked up, and took a shower. then i got to school and went roaming around for first period, since it's my work release period, then i went to PALS. abby and i got cupcakes for our kids for valentine's day; but only my kid was at school. so the three of us sat around talking, making jokes, and eating cupcakes. then i went back to school, and went to luch. i "ate" an apple, hehe, and hung out with my friends. the whole day was a festival of flowers, chocolate, and happy couples hugging, kissing, and holding hands. it wsnt a bad day, considering the mindset i was in. but i was still lonely. it was one of those times you wish you had someone special to hold onto. but i wasnt alone, so i got to grype about it with other people. then we went and partied. haha. now i'm sitting here, bored out of my fucking queer mind! there is nothing to do! i wanna go out! oh well, i'll probably find something to do anyways. well i'm gonna go find some way to entertain myself. ttyl yall. happy valentine's day...

-John

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well, its valentine's day, and its also been a little over a ear since i've moved here. i saw Kay the other day, one what would've been our one-year anniversary, had we never been broken up by our parents. lol. anyway, it was fun. olivia, justin, Kevin, and i; met up with KAy and Michelle, at collin creek Mall. we hung out, went shopping, ate, and other dumb stuff. lol. then i went home. well that was pretty much how it all went down. i'm gonna go now. Happy Valentines Day everyone.

okay! what the fuck?! yesterday was really fucking awkward, okay! 2am rolls around, and sparky and i are talking on the phone about random shit, since our crazy insomniac asses cant get the fuck to sleep. then i start to freak out! i get the feeling that i'm gonna die if i go to sleep (keep in mind i'm sober. lol). so i enduce a little euphoria, and i go to sleep a half hour later. then i wake up, ready to start the day. i was a bit dehydrated fron the night before, from work, because i was doing backstock most of the night, as usual, and wasnt drinking any water; and to top it off, my skin is dry as hell. so all during school, i'm chugging water. i finally got my skin moist and my muscles uncramped. but then i start to feel very VERY dizzy... oookay?....so then i try to figure out what the fucks going on, and my moms little exerpt of Water-Intoxication (drinking too much water, and flooding your system. then your brain slowly swells, and your lungs slowly fill up with fluid, and you drown yourself) crosses my mind. so i log onto a computer and look up the symptoms, and as my luck would have it, i have most of the symptoms: vertigo, head rushes, shortness of  breath, and i feel like i'm in a swimming pool.

Now i am freaking the fuck out! but i keep it calm, and go to the nurses office. i'm not for certain yet, but i think i have done it. she was as fucking clueless as i was! so i decided to lay down to see if it would make me feel better. i lay on my side, and start to feel a cold fluid running from one side of my chest to the other. so i sit up and call my dad. the nwhole time my legs are twitching, and i cant seem to stay still. so he takes me to the hospital, and i get checked out. i explain whats going on, and what i think it might be. i have a fever of 100 degrees, and its getting harder to breathe. 

after an exam and a few tests, i find out that i'm wrong. THANK YOU GOD!!!

it turns out that since i had hardly atenanything in the past 3 days (due to the fact that my heartburn and indigestion was acting up WAAAY too bad to even think about eating), that drinking all that water put my body into a mild state of shock. she explained that the symptoms were almost the same as that of water intoxication, and that it is not uncommon. so i was really relieved. so she perscribed me some prevacid to help with my stomache and heartburn.

so i went home, and hung out with josh, and then we went to matt's house. now josh and i are here, listening to music. i'm better now. i just have the remaints of the migrane i had earlier. but an exedrine will fix that. haha. anyway, that was my day. i have to work from 2-9 so i gotta get some sleep. ttyl guys. i love you all!!!

-John

work was fun as usual. lol. Jayne and i closed the store tonight. we did backstock, and reset some shelves so that the shoes would fit. and then i went around doing little things here and there. then there was this couple that kept trying to bargain for 4 3-pound dumbells! he was like, "16 for all four! if i can get that price i'll pay you now! green cash!" and jayne and i were just thinking to ourselves "what the fuck is with this guy? we sell clearance shoes for more than that!" haha. so we humored him, and used all the discounts we could, and it came out to $17. that was  the best we could do, and he was like "youre the boss you can do whatever you want!" and she said "i may be the boss but i'm not the owner." i was about ready to fuckin smack the shit out of both of them. his wife was a bitch who didnt even know her own FUCKING SHOE SIZE!!! and he was just an asshole who complained about what we DIDNT have.  but sfter  they left, we were just like "damn i'm glad thats over". then we went home. and now here i am. lol. anyway i g2g now. its getting late. ttyl guys. i love you all!!!

-John

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well, things are getting better. i dropped the whole diet thing, because i was having some VERY adverse health effects. not good at all! so i threw the diet pills out, and started eating more, and got more sleep. i'm better now. lol. well, amlost. i'm still a little groggy, and i get nausea after eating at times, but its wearing off bit by bit. i'm 135 and i'm happy with it. lol. now that all the fat is gone, i can start building the muscle! haha. exercise, food, and more exercise! well, enough anyway. i'll keep you posted on this fucked-up body-shaping episode, since theres really nothing else to write about (i'm LAME, i know, but i love it) well, i g2g to work, so i'll bbl. i love you all!!!

-John